Timeless Time

Timeless time..

It is just a date on the time- calendar .

 Is it really in the " now" , or is it a time before time was invented? 

Do we really know what " time" is , or shall we ever know?

***

She recalls her words to him

" we either find a way or invent one" 

Sure we had to invent a world of our own.

And she recalls : 

" when soul rejoices in soul, when heart rejoices in heart and when temple rejoices in temple... May our rejoice in each other be in His Love and Blessing." 

***

I still don't  comprehend how words poured in.

Felt like rain falling within,

or a spring of sweet, fresh water erupting in my soul ! 

Was I  the writer or was I the written words? 

Was I  the sender or the receiver ?

Was I the initiator or the initiated?

Did it all happen just now,

or was the seed planted in time before we even knew what time is ?

***

And she recalls 

wondering

Would we ever know the secret of words? 

***

Letting go..

Letting go..

Letting go..

It's not the mind 
It's not the heart 
It's something much deeper
Looks like an inner light
That pulls me away 
That urges me
To flip the page ..
*****
140 letter space
Was a homecoming
A seashore where 
I talked to the sea
Walked barefooted on the sand
Played with the waves
That was once there
Not any more. 
So.. It's a goodby ..
****
Fatinah shaker
Jedda, 20 June 2014

Mind looking onto mind ..

Mind looking on mind in the mirror of its own thoughts.. 

 

If you are of the kind that "thoughts" could pop up in your head unexpectedly any time and wouldn't  let you rest in peace till you let it out .. good for you. ✅

It means you could have a reservoir of " you" scattered here and there, that you could go back to, and have a look at "you" in the mirror of your thoughts, complete picture in sound, smell, and feelings.. and space and time too.. ! 

And you would live moments of wondering and joy or bewilderedness, while the track is played over and again, bringing smiles or tears..sometimes some of what crossed your mind  brings just numbness to the senses. 

Before the advent of the net and all the little gadgets and toys, my unexpected visitors would jump right away in a tiny little pocket  notebook, to get hold of me, as prospect articles for my daily newspaper column, then. 

That is history now. 

No columns to write, no scraps of papers, nor chicken scratched words impossible to decipher. 

Now it's the I Pad and the keyboard and files in  aNote with one named: thoughts .. containing some of those fleeting beautiful disturbances, I call thoughts. 

Today, passing by the file .. these little friends dated Sunday Nov 20, 2011, caught my attention:

• • to loose a loved one to death is less painful than loosing a loved one alive

  • •  حبيبتي يا مصر you are being torn apart by pointless demonstrations. I guess the revolution of 25th of January was a romantic love dream, actualized for a short honey moon. 

• • living  alone is a meditation in itself. 

• • life is too short. Don't postpone LTC ( loving tender care ) till tomorrow. 

• •  I still remember a stranger who walked by and disappeared but the imprint of his foot steps are still there !

• • health is the best gift there is. 

(Sunday Nov 20, 2011)

And I wonder: what was all that about? 

Was it about me?

Was is about a dream both Egypt and myself shared and woke up to a painful reality? 

Was it a health issue? 

Was it a meditation in loneliness on LTC...loving..tender..care, the number one missing health secret in people's lives ? 

Or, was it about coincidences that leave imprints on on's life? 

****

Fatinah Shaker

Alexandria

Friday 26/9/14

Day 2 fasting Zu Alhiga 

What are You grateful for? Take the challenge

So I've been nominated by Momo Shaker ( my grand son) to do the positivity/gratitude challenge. To do the challenge, for 5 days write at least 3 things you're grateful for. And each day you nominate people who then must do the same. 

***

Since The Blessings for which I am grateful are beyond count and comprehension, I'll be as concise as possible getting at the essence of what I am grateful for. And will think it  out loud and write it down in just one shot, instead over five days. 

Here I go: 

1- grateful for God creating me ..me not somebody else. 

2- grateful for God creating me in the faith of Islam and giving me the faculties to think, question, meditate, to feel and see Him in me and with me. 

3- grateful for God bestowing on me qualities of a teacher, the love of teaching, reading, and writing. 

4- grateful for God's Grace, lending me a hand in my downfalls. 

5- grateful for God giving me the chance to live that long to witness life in its unfolding from generation to another. 

6- grateful for having lived in the era of radio transistors, to black and white television, writing letters and waiting for the postman delivery...to the internet and virtual reality. 

7- grateful for books and my lasting friendship with their authors, and friends we shared together the joy of reading. 

8- grateful for every one who gave a book as a gift, they stand as stars in my memory. 

9- grateful for my students of twenty years of teaching. 

10- grateful for Twitter, connecting me with many of my former students, and opening a horizon for new friendships. 

11- grateful for my Eritrean adopted family and my blood family that's unique in every respect, believing in education and the freedom to choose. 

12- grateful for my I Pad. 

13- grateful for Momo Shaker challenge to have quality time meditating on why we do exist? 

Note: I'll refrain from nominating a name to take the challenge, but it's open for whoever would like to dive in. 

What a beautiful day! Just Awesome colors.

"2day is the best there is"

Wow.
At last. Shall be able to post again in my Yawatan blog after it got mixed up with my other blog shahid-yawatan. Feel great.